Hate to say i told you so

Bleh .... i hate proving myself right.

i should have known better. well, and shit, i did know better. But the other times you were so open and honest and up front about not wanting anything more than a piece of ass, and i was the one who m ade it 'complicated' for myself i guess. so this time, i mentally and emotionally prepare myself for the 'just a piece of ass' scenerio, and honestly, that is all i wanted this time. a way to ease the sting of the recent break up, but YOU made it conmplicated this time. and i was strong, and i resisted the urge to surface all the old suppressed feelings i had for you. and then, the dam broke and they all came out. but you said that's what you wanted, that this was what you wanted, we were what you knew you wanted.

and now, 2 months later, i feel like we're back at square 1. and somehow, i still find myelf feeling guilty, like i still need to be the one to feel ackward about things. well no, fuck you. i didnt want any of this to be this way, i KNEW this is how i would feel, and this is how it would turn out. and i should have just listened to myself and have known, you live for YOUR selfish moment regardless of who you break in the process.

i have never been quite perfect enough for you, you always a find a flaw. but this time, you felt more lost than ever before, so desperate to get that feeling back that you pushed for something you didnt really want .... well i didnt want it either. and yet, you will still be the one to walk away unscathed.

i say i love you too much
so i'll say i hate you for tonight.