So i sit here and think ... really, what is the point of a relationship? I mean, basically, you just live with another person, and do things at the same time, such as eat, watch tv, shop, etc. Sure, there's that whole love thing, but really, break it down to the most simple concept ..... you share a space with another human being.
I'm not so sure I really require that in my life.
Because with that space sharing comes feeling like you have to entertain somebody, like you can't just sit around and do what you did before they got there. There is now another person in your space, changing up your routine, the food you buy, the places you go.
There are times when it would be nice to have another adult to talk to ..... but to open my space, and give regular attention to another person? Hmm, i just don't know. It seems like an awful lot of work, and time, and energy just for the end result to be that you share a space for the rest of your life. I mean, i'm done having children, i've already done the marriage AND divorce thing, maybe i'm just over it all? Call me cynical but it just seems like a big cat and mouse game.
The only thing that makes a relationship different than say, living with my brother, is sex. And quite frankly, i can more than live without that due to all the other crap that goes along with it.
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
Monday, June 23, 2008
update 101
Well, the 2007-2008 school year is officially over. New year starts July 7th, in which i'll be taking 15 credits the 1st semester and trying not to burn myself out with work, school and being a mom.
things here are ok, money still sucks but most things get paid on time which is a step in the upward direction.
my uncle came back from the brink of being clinically dead and is doing amazingly well. i do believe they are going to release him home soon.
work is, well work. i pretty much get the hours i want, on the days i want. i've settled myself into a pretty nice position. I would really enjoy a raise, but i can deal for the time being. i just keep my fingers crossed that my aunt gets her new car soon, so i can have hers and not have to spend $100/week on gas anymore. that will help everything tun a whole lot smoother.
acsha is done with school until the middle of july, then her summer program starts. she's all registered for pre-k in the fall, and she is super excited about riding the big yellow bus and going to the 'big' school. i hope she still feels that way when it actually gets here. we have her evaluation on the 1st. i expect that she'll be slightly more advanced than the other kids.
rumor is terry's pregnant again.
enough said about that.
gianna's visits have become more frequent but i suspect it is because gian is back on the 'we should get back together' kick. i'm not feeding into it, but i do enjoy seeing her more.
besides those things, nothing else is really going on. looking forward to my bday get together at the end of july, and the start of my new classes.
things here are ok, money still sucks but most things get paid on time which is a step in the upward direction.
my uncle came back from the brink of being clinically dead and is doing amazingly well. i do believe they are going to release him home soon.
work is, well work. i pretty much get the hours i want, on the days i want. i've settled myself into a pretty nice position. I would really enjoy a raise, but i can deal for the time being. i just keep my fingers crossed that my aunt gets her new car soon, so i can have hers and not have to spend $100/week on gas anymore. that will help everything tun a whole lot smoother.
acsha is done with school until the middle of july, then her summer program starts. she's all registered for pre-k in the fall, and she is super excited about riding the big yellow bus and going to the 'big' school. i hope she still feels that way when it actually gets here. we have her evaluation on the 1st. i expect that she'll be slightly more advanced than the other kids.
rumor is terry's pregnant again.
enough said about that.
gianna's visits have become more frequent but i suspect it is because gian is back on the 'we should get back together' kick. i'm not feeding into it, but i do enjoy seeing her more.
besides those things, nothing else is really going on. looking forward to my bday get together at the end of july, and the start of my new classes.
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