marriage

So, as I sit here, in the new and oh so very empty apartment, I have some serious amount of time to reflect. In the paso month I have gotten the new apt, gotten married, and done it all while working 70hours a week and driving upwards of 1000miles or more.

I said i would never give him a 2nd thought. i said i would never get married again. i'm glad i didnt stick to that. I guess this is how a true marriage should make you feel. safe, secure and even though we're hundreds of miles apart, sitting in shitty conditions tonight, i dont feel so alone. i have a much more mature love in my life that cant be understood by anyone who hasnt gotten the chance to marry their best friend.

i am blessed.
no more army, no more being apart, no more agony and painful heartache. it's true marital bliss and the appreciation, genuine appreciation of his presence. our long awaited life together is finally going to begin. we've earned it.