... fool

i can not wait for this day to be over.

i'm plagued with horrible dreams, unsettling feelings and total distrust in people. Idle time does me no good, either does getting the run around.

whatever the result is for today's issue, i just want it done.
i want this nasty feeling to go away.
i want to be able to concentrate on things.

ugh .... hopeless.

sick

of never having you here when i need you.
like now.

of the seemingly shady reasons and circumstances.
like now.

of always second guessing people and wondering if i'm better off alone.
like i am now.

Things I'm sick of ...

- Math
- Bills
- Feeling like very little I do is actually appreciated
- People at work
- Small town mentality
- Being treated as second rate
- Getting paid every 2 weeks
- Starbucks costing $6 a cup
- Never having enough gas money
- Seeing my dad once a year
- Family gatherings
- Fake people
- Drama
- Not having time to spend with Acsha
- Never seeing Gianna
- Feeling like I just always want more.