Lazy? We'll call it ... busy.

QUEST TO NOT SOUND SO DAMN LAME

I would like to report that the reason i have not updated in a few days is due to the sudden filling of my social schedule. This however ... is not the case, i have just been uberlazy. We however, will call it busy.

QUEST TO CONVINCE MY MOTHER IT'S TIME TO PAY ME

Driving lessons with my brother are going rather swell, we will talk about that in the next quest. This quest is about trying to get my mother to realize that most people work a week, and then get paid for that week. Some, yes, work 2 weeks and get paid, but that is naturally decided upon before work gets underway. Now mind you the initial price she set out on the table was $200/wk for 20 hours of my time. It is however part way into week 2 and still no sign, or even mention of money. This normally would not bother me, except i am piss ass broke. Like seriously ... my car is on fumes, the needle does not move off of 'E' and i am smoking the cheapest brand of cigarettes i could buy ... with my little brothers money mind you.

None of this would bother me normally, i obviously enjoy having money, but i am content living modestly for the time being while i go back to school and get things figured out. What does urk the crap out of me, is that i pledged my time to her, and therefor do not have time to go find an actual job .. you know ... one that pays me for my time.

QUEST TO NOT GET LOST IN TROY

Driving ..... we took yesterday off so my brother could study a bit more for his CCNA3 exam. This morning, bright and early ... ok thats a lie. This morning, around 10am ... i picked him up and off we went. We tootled around like normal, i made him parallel park on a one-way side street ... on the left hand side. I thought his head was going to explode with confusion, but he did well.

QUEST TO NOT HURT FEELINGS

So i have several friends who live in various surrounding cities ... some of which i hang out with on occassion. There is one in particular though, whom i have known for apx. 5 years, and other than when i moved to PA, he has lived 25 minutes from me ... tops at any given time. (i move around alot)

So ... one would think that if i was just SO insanely gorgeous, funny, smart, caring, yadda-yadda, feed-me-a-bunch-of-bullshit-once-again .... that 25 minutes would be nothing to drive. YET ... here it is, going on 6 years later and i have yet to see this person in the flesh. It is always the same thing .. it's too dark and i dont see well at night, esp when i'm not sure where i am going .... or ... you could come over, but i live with my mom and she gets uncomfortable when people come over late at night ... or he waits until he KNOWS my daughter is sleeping and then suggests it ... or ... oh i worked all day so i am tired. there is ALWAYS something that makes it so it can't happen. well i am just friggin sorry buddy ... but in nearly 6 years time, you have "seen" my in and out of relationships ... both serious and not, you are well aware of the birth of BOTH of my children .... and yet you always wait until i am IN a relationship to feed me some sappy story about how much i mean to you ... yeah right!

So ... you know what. yes, i lie to you at times ... i go to Troy every single morning now ... and yes, most morning i drive right past your apt. and at times i drive past your work .. and sure, you cross my mind, and then i remember how retarded the entire situation is ... and we keep driving.

Now .. mind you, the guy whom i am currently seeing ... drove nearly 4 hours, on a whim that i might want to see him, just because he wanted to see me in the flesh. i have NO damn sympathy for a person who lives 25 minutes away and can not be bothered.

THE QUEST TO NOT KISS AND TELL (quest failed) ((oops))

OK - so i have to get all girly and mushy for a minute, because i just HAVE to share this with all the women out there to let them know that it does exist, and i have to share it for the men, to let them know that we really do notice, and appreciate these things. (and yes, i know that was a terrible run on sentence .. but we're talking love and swooning not proper english)

The guy .... no-no wait ... THE guy that girls ... no-no women ... didnt think existed ... is head over heels gay (the mushy type, not the homosexual type ... not that there is ANYTHING wrong with being homosexual ... i'm all for everyones rights to do whoever they want ... i digress) anywho .. he is all about ... me.

You watch those movies and music videos, and you see those embraces, and kisses, those steamy love making scenes, the cute cuddles and forehead kisses, the insanely thoughtful gifts for NO reason. You read about cute guys who are well traveled and can quote philosophers, who dress like they belong in GQ and can do their own laundry *gasp!* You read in magazines about men who can cook, like to stay fit and healthy but can still enjoy the down time eat cold cereal at midnight while you are playing video games, get up the next morning and HE deals with crappy chores like dishes and taking out the garbage. You see interviews with celebrities who talk about how family/goal oriented their mates are, and you gag when you see a man look into a womens eyes, say ANYTHING to her and know that it came right from his heart.

You dream about a guy who will turn down a night on the town with the boys and a trip to the strip club for his birthday in exchange for dinner, dancing and romance with you. You long for a guy that can make you feel like the most beautiful women in the world .... every .... single .... day. A man who tells you that you are gorgeous, and does the cutest most thoughtful things for you, completely out of the blue ... but you know that everything he says, everything he does, and every action he takes ... is because he wants to, and because he really thinks that you are the greatest thing in the world to him.

well i have found him.
they do exist.
he is amazing!

*gush, swoon, blush, tee-hee, giggle*

DAILY SIDE NOTES
-i am still fighting with the student loan company to release the money they ALREADY told me i could have ... but for some reason are being complete asses about it.
-My youngest daughter comes to visit this weekend. This will be the 1st time she gets to meet Chris ... as well as the 1st time my ex-husband gets to meet him as well. Mondays post should be interesting.
-i am really hungry and should perhaps go eat something. The tofu from dinner is wearing off, i need to rejuvinate