Nasty Midget Mutants

WHY DO I ALWAYS GET INVOLVED WITH THE EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE GUYS?

The guys who have mommy issues, or ex-wife issues. The guys who come with 7 suitcases, 3 back packs and 2 brown bags full of bullshit and drama. The guys who can barely take care of themselves .... reguardless of age!

SERIOUSLY?!?!

I am honestly beginning to think that I should just throw in the towel for awhile.

work. school. acsha and family.
focus on ME and MYSELF.
i need to do things ..... for me.
and if i meet people along the way that think they want to be a part of it all .... so be it.

but my plans change for no one!


the visit to philly was retarded.
Gian and i got along GREAT!
seeing gianna was fantastic!!!
being in Philly was as amazing as it ever is, and being able to show Acsha something that her mommy loves so much was very satisfying.

The trip down was total BS ... puking and other drama.
The hotel stay was decent i guess ... i got to take a bath.
The trip TO philly was ..... fucking retarded.
It was hard to enjoy myself when i was so annoyed with the person i went with.

The city was as beautiful as ever ... my desire to live there as great as it ever has been.

The trip back to the hotel ... complete headache.
The rest of the trip including the drive home ...... BLAH! fucking GRRRR!

the fight that happened when we reached my apt...... fantastic.
the emotional draining that happened ..... i dont need it.

i dont need any of the stress or worry.
its the very reason i got divorced.
i just dont have time for any of this right now, or ever for that matter.
its been mere months and already the constant drama-filled-emotional-banter has started.

its like buying a new and incredible vacuum that does ALL this insanely wonderful stuff. It's like the best vacuum in the world w/a coffee pot and tv attached. but one day you have to change the bag, you open the front and you realize that it's run by a bunch of nasty midget mutants. and even though you want to just replace the bag, close it up and continue to enjoy the worlds greatest vacuum, you cant because you now know what really makes it work.